By the time you read this letter I probably have left the community and will be headed for the "elsewhere". After you finish reading this letter, please keep it safe or burn it so there will not be another sole the will read this letter. In the past a few months, as you well know, I have been training with the Giver. I have learned lots of things about the past that nobody in the community experienced, well everybody but the giver. I've received from the Giver lots of happy and joyful memory but I also received some painful memory. The truth about the community and how wrong their thinking was droved me into running away. I know that the road to else where is a hard way and I might die trying but at least won't have to be released. I realized that the community was actually a cruel, imperfect and meaningless. You have no way knowing this because you have not experienced or felt real pain but I have seen what the community was afraid of. They are afraid about lots of things.
They are afraid of people making choices by them selves and the community is petrified to face the real world. They control us and they do not let us have freedom. Have you ever thought about this? Is the job you have really what you wanted to do? Did you get a say in what job you were going to get? The elders choose our job and I think that is not fair. I think that people should be able to choose our own job instead of being bossed around by other people. They don’t let us do anything that is different because they want the community to be all the same so there will be no mistakes. I could not stand this, because there was no fun at all in life. Right now I am guessing that you are disagreeing with me about the thoughts I have but I can understand why. You have no way knowing any of this because you have not experienced the memories of all sorts from the giver but I hope you at least try to understand me. They also control our freedom by assigning our families instead of letting us choose. They don’t want mistakes sot they try to control everything that is in the community. The community is afraid for mistakes and the truth.
I learned a significant feeling while training with the Giver and this feeling was love. In the community there is no love. You do not know what love is I am guessing. Well let me try to explain it as best as I can. Love is the warm, joyful and happy feeling that you get when you see somebody or something. You probably felt this if you had stirrings before but if you have than you stopped having those dreams because of the pills you have been taking. The pills stops you from having those dreams because the community does not want love in the community because they think with love the community will be different and will fall apart. One night you should ask your parents if they love you or what love is but you parents are probably going to say that love is a meaningless adjective or word. I felt love for lots of things like the Giver and I felt a bit of love for you. With love, life would be much joyful but the community does not want that and that was one of the reasons why I left the community. The community controls love, which is not expectable to me.
I have also seen the truth through all the lies that the community has set out. The community has said that when they are "releasing" they are sending them to elsewhere but I have seen what they have done to the people. I know this because I saw a release that my own father executed. When I saw it the first time I could not believe what I was seeing. I felt terribly sick and miserable because I finally met with the true meaning of release. Everyday since that day, the thought of it slowly and slowly started to sicken me and kill me. I couldn't stand it. I had to run away from this sickening community where they kill all that is different and destroy feelings for one another. I just could not stand this horrible and over too controlling community so I left everything behind me so that I can start a new life in the real world. I hope you will be able to do what you like in the community and I wish you luck.
Sincerely Jonas
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